Hiding My Scars.

Hiding My Scars.

hiding my scarsWe (my husband and I) went for an event early last month, it was a milestone celebration for my family’s covenant family friends. A meeting that was scheduled a day after the event was running into a late night and after waiting almost endlessly for my husband and his colleagues to round up so we can retire for the day, I decided to go to our hosts house and relax a bit before my husband picks me to our hotel room.

I stepped out to the front of the office building and asked some of the protocol officers I saw to please drop me off. They said I should hold on a bit for the car they wanted to use to get back from an errand. I saw one of the organisation buses parked in front of me and told them to take me in it since it was not engaged.

They refused and insisted that I wait for the car… it won’t be long. I was not ready to wait another minute and I walked to the bus door and told them to please take me in it, I had had a long day and just wanted to relax. They begged and confessed that they had been instructed not to take me in the bus, the SUV was assigned to take us around. I told them not to mind (the bus was in a pretty great shape so I wondered) I told them I would let their leader know I insisted.

The Slip.
I wish I had listened to them. We had a smooth ride to the house and as I tried to get off the bus, my right foot slipped into the rail ring of the bus at the same time when one of the officers  was opening the door. It rested on my shin as it pushed it backward with the door causing a drilling pain that I could only express with a shrill…
The apologies were profuse, I tried to laugh in the midst of the pain as I nodded and told them it was an accident, but the pain was real… and pain full.

I applied any and everything from juice of basil leaves (recommended by my host), spirit, first Aid spray, antibiotic ointments recommended by our doctor, Aloe First spray… few days later with a slightly swollen but painful ankle I got painful but loving massages from my husband and a nanny at our Church Creche… and then the ankle got healed, the injury got healed too but left a scar, an ugly scar.

The Hiding.
I didn’t like it, the scar was dark and against my light skin it looked like it was screaming for notice from everyone. People started asking questions, and I had to start explaining almost all the time…
I decided to hide it. Out came all the long skirts and pants, daily, on every occasion, the scar had to be covered. But as much as I tried to cover it, my husband knew it was there, my children knew and I knew too.

We all have scars we want to hide, cover, remove… scars from bad decisions, slip ups, mistakes, bad choices, persecutions, rejections, dejection, abuse and more. We feel vulnerable when someone mistakenly notices a scar we didn’t intend to expose or we were not quite ready to.

But really…THE SCAR IS A TESTIMONY!

A testimony that with all the blows life dealt you, you are still standing:

  • Sinned, forgiven and still standing
  • Battled with suicidal thoughts but still standing
  • Scarred by your decisions but still standing
  • Bruised but still standing
  • Abused but still standing
  • Used and misused but still standing
  • rejected but still standing
  • Dejected but still standing
  • Lied on, cheated on, taken for granted, mocked at, looked down on…

…but still standing

If you have managed to move on even in the midst of the struggles, if you have managed to live life with all the scars, then your life, like mine is a testimony! Hallelujah!

God’s Teaching Moment.
Few days ago, I went to see a dermatologist who analyzed the scar and put me on some medication to take it off, and that was when God spoke to me. I had to expose my scars to the doctor for her to be able to help me.
If I expose my scars to Jesus, He knows the best way to take care of them. How He chooses to take care of them is totally up to Him. If I could trust a mere man because she is an expert on skin, then I should, with much more secure trust, expose my scars just as it is, to the one who made me; spirit, soul and body, after all, He is The Great Physician.

Please meditate on:

  • If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9 ESV
  • If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there; if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath. Psalm 34:18 MSG
  • And we know that God causes everything to work together[a] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. Romans 8:28 NLT
  • Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock. Isaiah 26:24 ESV
  • I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. Jeremiah 29:11 MSG

And finally the Holy Spirit was sent…

  • To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified. Isaiah 61:3

Instead of being ashamed of our scars, we should be bold and courageous enough to expose them to God knowing that only He truly cares and can take care of them perfectly. Not only that, He will still use us and our scars to bring Him glory and as we submit to His use, we too will be exalted!

Do you have any scars?

Have you exposed them to God?

Copyright© Teshuva 2015



Save pagePDF pagePrint page
Ugochi Oritsejolomisan

Ugochi Oritsejolomisan

Ugochi Oritsejolomisan is a Christ-follower, wife to Benson, mother of 3 awesome boys, God's agent, speaker and blogger. Writing to inspire you for a better life in God! Find her on: google
Ugochi Oritsejolomisan

Latest posts by Ugochi Oritsejolomisan (see all)

12 Comments

  1. I really appreciate ma, u just made my day .

    1. Praise God Gift!
      Have a super blessed day!

  2. hello pastor
    so very interesting.thank you so much for ur writting .we got to many scars to hide. It could be emotional scars (thats unseen scars), which could be more painfull that the one we can see.some of this scars are cause by us or our environment or just life.But anyway we cast all our scars on JESUS. leting him bear it for us.that’s one of the reason he came to live among us and die for us. thank you once more. love you.GOD bless.

    1. Praise God Deborah! We must learn to cast all our cares on Him.
      Have a super blessed day!
      Love

  3. Oh, dear friend! To answer your question at the end of the post, I will quote the words to a precious Dottie Rambo song, “If I could count all the tears that have fallen, well, it would seem like an ocean to me; And if my heart were a window you could look through, oh, the pain and scars you would see!” It is such a liberating thing to open ourselves wide to Jesus and allow Him to enter all of those dark, hidden places in our lives. We hold the key, and He is a Gentleman…He will never force His way into any of those places, but if we invited Him, as you said, He will come in and heal those places of such brokenness….yes, I have surely exposed those ugly scars to Him, and I have felt that sweet Balm of Gilead applied time after time. He is a faithful God. So thankful for your thoughts today…I am so sorry you had to go through this, but God surely used it for His glory. 🙂

    1. “It is such a liberating thing to open ourselves wide to Jesus and allow Him to enter all of those dark, hidden places in our lives. We hold the key…” I read these words over again, it is liberating indeed.
      Many thanks for coming by and encouraging us here, do have a super blessed day!
      Love

  4. This was a hard post for me to read… I’ve spent my life hiding acne scars on my shoulders and cheeks. I don’t go to the beach, can’t wear cool sleeveless summer tops, or pretty dresses. I’ve been hiding my whole life. It’s even affected my former marriage, going to water parks with my kids, and even enjoying a day at the lake. I’ve begged the Lord for healing for 30 years. I’ve gone on elimination diets, gone to to many doctors and dermatologists, taken medications, expensive supplements, lotions, laser treatments, acid peels and painful dermal rolling all to no avail. I’ve spent all I possibly can on any treatment that holds promise without success. I feel like the woman with the issue of blood who needs a touch from Jesus. I know many people suffer in this world with conditions far worse or painful and hiding the pain and the scars. I think I may be hiding my scars not only because of the personal embarrassment, but because I don’t want people to feel uncomfortable looking at them and wondering why I suffer this way. Thank you for encouraging me to continue to fight the good fight of faith, that this issue will perfect in me the Lords purpose.

    1. I can understand what you feel like, I battled acne too for a while. But I thank God you understand that patience is required while doing all you know. Patience is the energy behind faith, do not give up your hope, God will perfect all that concerns you.
      Have a joy-filled super blessed day!
      Love

  5. This was truly encouraging. Thank you and more grace!!

    1. Praise God! I am glad to knoe you were encouraged.
      Have a super blessed week!
      Love

  6. I loved this article you wrote Ugochi. It’s all so so true. We all have battle scars. Some our own doing and others that have been done to us, as you said the great physician is there just waiting for us to ask for His help. He takes the bad and uses it for good and for His Glory for those who love him. Just look at the scars our Jesus endured for us and the whole world could see them. If he could forgive others for giving him those scars then who are we not to forgive others for giving us scars and we need to forgive ourselves for the ones we have caused to ourselves and to others because Jesus forgives us. Thank you Ugochi so much. I love you lady.

    1. God is so loving and always turns our bad around for good.
      I love you more mom. Always excited to se you here.
      Thanks a lot!

Leave a Reply